I feel better now. It was like I was coming off of Heroin withdrawing from clozaril. Got the flu and everything. I never get sick, it had to be a withdrawal symptom. Nonetheless, I took the last half of March off and lost my Supernova status. So now I'm back to silverstar. Will be no problem getting at least Gold Star though by month's end. The FPP's accumulate soooo slow with silverstar. And since I make most of my profit from poker by cashing in my FPP's, I'm a little worried. Gonna have to make money the old-fashioned way- by winning it at the tables- for the time being. I'm up $10 this month. Life is good.
I'm just happy I got that horrible drug out of my body. I feel clean.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
I'm a Cowboy, I check/call my draws
March going about as bad as February. Struggling mightly at this point to keep my supernova status. I feel horrible. I will just come right out and say it. I am getting off an anti-psychotic medication I take called clozaril. I have been on clozaril for 4 years now. If you are new to my blog, I have schitzo-affective disorder. For this I was prescribed clozaril. Well, the news has not been good about clozaril. The damaging effects it has on one's cardiac health. The constant need for sleep, the flattening effect. I told my doctor I'm done with it. Put me on something else. Anyway, getting off the clozaril is proving to be very difficult. I can't harldy sleep. I'm withdrawing, I'm agitated. It's like coming off a street drug, I'm just crawling in my skin and tired and miserable.
My doctor has put me on another anti-psychotic medication. I have not been taking it. Fuck it. I'm not getting hooked like a fiend on theses drugs. They mess your body up. I'd rather be healthy and out of my mind. But I think I can be healthy and sane without these drugs. I'm working on it. But , right now, right now it's a nightmare.
My doctor has put me on another anti-psychotic medication. I have not been taking it. Fuck it. I'm not getting hooked like a fiend on theses drugs. They mess your body up. I'd rather be healthy and out of my mind. But I think I can be healthy and sane without these drugs. I'm working on it. But , right now, right now it's a nightmare.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
bitch..
Well, February sucked. I kept my supernova status, but loss just about $100.(after $300 bonus, yikes) I played 2500 sngs. I have had to move down in stakes since destroying my laptop and running bad. I tried playing turbo sngs for awhile and got destroyed. I have always played the regular sngs since starting poker. I was adjusting my ranges I guess for the turbos. It's kind of a different game. Instead of putting in effort to study the game, I went back to the regular sngs. I do MUCH better in these. So yeah, I'm playing $5sngs again. Fuck, whatever. I've made a couple of adjustments to my game. It's a little worrisome that I had a losing month playing $5sngs, albeit playing 28 at a time.
Just sitting here, 5 on sunday morning drinking whiskey. I had to put in a decent amount of volume just to keep supernova status playing the $5 sngs, I mixed in some $10s as well toward the end. So, even though I had bad results I'm happy that I reached my volume goal. I mean, playing poker, that's the only goal you can control. Get the colume in and good things happen.. sometimes. I guess whatever. Who cares about anything though.
What else. Oh, Runs With Mice is doing well. My fish died though. That was awhile ago, I might have mentioned it before.
I might play a deepstack tourny on stars today. It's the $11 deepstack 10K guranteed. I remember playing a couple of these before when i used to play mtts and I made the final table twice. They take forever, but if you really need like $200-$300 it's a good way to get it. The field is tends to be soft and you can just nut peddle for the first few hours and triple, quadruple up.
Told myself I would take the rest of the month off from sngs (2 days lol). By the end of the month it gets grueling. The other night I was playing and my eyes just kind of lost focus and felt like they were floating in my eyesockets. It only lasted a few seconds and I regained control, but it was a little unsettling. Guess that's all for now.
-duval76
Just sitting here, 5 on sunday morning drinking whiskey. I had to put in a decent amount of volume just to keep supernova status playing the $5 sngs, I mixed in some $10s as well toward the end. So, even though I had bad results I'm happy that I reached my volume goal. I mean, playing poker, that's the only goal you can control. Get the colume in and good things happen.. sometimes. I guess whatever. Who cares about anything though.
What else. Oh, Runs With Mice is doing well. My fish died though. That was awhile ago, I might have mentioned it before.
I might play a deepstack tourny on stars today. It's the $11 deepstack 10K guranteed. I remember playing a couple of these before when i used to play mtts and I made the final table twice. They take forever, but if you really need like $200-$300 it's a good way to get it. The field is tends to be soft and you can just nut peddle for the first few hours and triple, quadruple up.
Told myself I would take the rest of the month off from sngs (2 days lol). By the end of the month it gets grueling. The other night I was playing and my eyes just kind of lost focus and felt like they were floating in my eyesockets. It only lasted a few seconds and I regained control, but it was a little unsettling. Guess that's all for now.
-duval76
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Where'd you go?
Been just a lil but since I last posted. The first shitty thing that happened to me is I spilt a miller lite on my keypad and destroyed my $1200 laptop. Didnt play poker fpr amonth. I had to take money out of my poker account and but a new high end laptop that can cater to my multitabling needs.
SInce it's been a while I will give my situation. I am a semi-professioanl poker player. The other shit I do besides poker is I go clean a gym after they close. This is for 2 hours every weekday night. So with internet poker and this job I am able to scrape by and call it a life.
-duval76
SInce it's been a while I will give my situation. I am a semi-professioanl poker player. The other shit I do besides poker is I go clean a gym after they close. This is for 2 hours every weekday night. So with internet poker and this job I am able to scrape by and call it a life.
-duval76
Friday, May 7, 2010
warming my thrones when it's dire
Here's a kickin' beat-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZ9KfKx8PmM
I think I played poker every weekday for 3 months. At least 100 sngs a day. I made money of course. Maybe just 3K (I make most of my $$$ in bonuses) I had a 40 buy in downswing a 1k breakeven stretch, the standard bullshit but did stayed focused and unmoved and pulled out of both funks. Yesterday I had a session that got to me though. Played only 55 sngs and lost 20 buyins. I must have bubbled 10 times. Annoying knockouts too. There are some regulars who steal my blind EVERY TIME. I have adjusted. If they don't push I re-steal 1 in 3 times. If they push I call with J9+ which is a VERY loose range, but correct, if not out of principle buy Im up against a random hand so mathmaticaly as well.
Anyway, a couple people who did this to me have learned to stop. Eventually these regs will too, depending on off they are quick learners or not. So these bubble bustouts were mostly from a few top regs brainlessly stealing my blind with trash, me calling with Q-high and them sucking out. What doesn't get throiugh to them is that I have a much looser calling range than a donk random. Yet they see me as a tight reg and so they steal. They give randoms walks when they have tighter calling ranges. Especially on the bubble. Donks bluff and at 100 chips pots early and steal the blinds and 50-100 level but tighten up like adrum on the bubble. Exact opposite of how to play an SNG.
Whatever, it's not a great situation for either of us, this BVB dick waving but hey they started it. Couple of the regs are too pig-headed to stop and they keep sucking out on me and culminated in horrendous display of injustice yesterday that I am taking today and the weekend off. Rarely, does poker get to me but it did yesterday. Usually after like half hour of a session I'm fine but I couldn't get my mind off the 20 buy in loss and the way it happened I drank. Today I spent much of the day on a bench in the park.
I'm getting close to the point where I can move up to the 60's. I 24-table continous 5-8 hours per day. I will be able to get a $4K bonus every month and will be able to play full time professionaly. I will certainly at least break even each month. If I do that I will make 48k a year. Well a little with milestones. Confident I can beat the 60's though and will make more.
Man,most people really are terrible at poker. I guess poker is not something that is taught in schools and most people can't learn by themselves? It takes inependent thought? There's all different types of intelligrence imo. I guess there is kind of an intuitve intelligence that is rare and these people play poker well. That mixed with an ounce of common sense and basic math skills.
I feel I will maybe go back to the park bench then I will drink tonight and tommorow and get back on the grind monday.
My fish died, she was four years old.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZ9KfKx8PmM
I think I played poker every weekday for 3 months. At least 100 sngs a day. I made money of course. Maybe just 3K (I make most of my $$$ in bonuses) I had a 40 buy in downswing a 1k breakeven stretch, the standard bullshit but did stayed focused and unmoved and pulled out of both funks. Yesterday I had a session that got to me though. Played only 55 sngs and lost 20 buyins. I must have bubbled 10 times. Annoying knockouts too. There are some regulars who steal my blind EVERY TIME. I have adjusted. If they don't push I re-steal 1 in 3 times. If they push I call with J9+ which is a VERY loose range, but correct, if not out of principle buy Im up against a random hand so mathmaticaly as well.
Anyway, a couple people who did this to me have learned to stop. Eventually these regs will too, depending on off they are quick learners or not. So these bubble bustouts were mostly from a few top regs brainlessly stealing my blind with trash, me calling with Q-high and them sucking out. What doesn't get throiugh to them is that I have a much looser calling range than a donk random. Yet they see me as a tight reg and so they steal. They give randoms walks when they have tighter calling ranges. Especially on the bubble. Donks bluff and at 100 chips pots early and steal the blinds and 50-100 level but tighten up like adrum on the bubble. Exact opposite of how to play an SNG.
Whatever, it's not a great situation for either of us, this BVB dick waving but hey they started it. Couple of the regs are too pig-headed to stop and they keep sucking out on me and culminated in horrendous display of injustice yesterday that I am taking today and the weekend off. Rarely, does poker get to me but it did yesterday. Usually after like half hour of a session I'm fine but I couldn't get my mind off the 20 buy in loss and the way it happened I drank. Today I spent much of the day on a bench in the park.
I'm getting close to the point where I can move up to the 60's. I 24-table continous 5-8 hours per day. I will be able to get a $4K bonus every month and will be able to play full time professionaly. I will certainly at least break even each month. If I do that I will make 48k a year. Well a little with milestones. Confident I can beat the 60's though and will make more.
Man,most people really are terrible at poker. I guess poker is not something that is taught in schools and most people can't learn by themselves? It takes inependent thought? There's all different types of intelligrence imo. I guess there is kind of an intuitve intelligence that is rare and these people play poker well. That mixed with an ounce of common sense and basic math skills.
I feel I will maybe go back to the park bench then I will drink tonight and tommorow and get back on the grind monday.
My fish died, she was four years old.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Brooms lean in vacant rooms
Sup. This is my favorite rapper,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9rYyXk1CV_c&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i3hAplTqIjI
______________________________________________________
Been grinding sng's as usual and hope to make supernova this year. With my 10 hour a week job and sngs I barely get by. This is the life most pro or semi-pro poker players live. It's reality. Saw the most disillusioned post on 2+2 the other day. The OP is lamenting about poker being a shitty way to make a living and how he's been grinding 6 years or so. Some idiot responds that if you have been playing winning poker for 5 years you should be set for the rest of your life. Then he went on to ridicule the OP for investing too much time into poker/ no social skill/ too much time on the internet/ don't you have friends- you know the standard shit people spew.
The fact is most poker professionals make in the neighboorhood of 25k-30k a year. Basically it's a profession with the average salary of a teacher or cab driver. Of course there are people who make millions a year, but it a very small percentage- the upper upper percentile. I guess the guy who made that ignorant post only hangs out with Phil Ivey and Tom Dwan. To be honest if it weren't for sponsorship deals these guys couldn't even make enough purely playing poker in 5 years to be set for life. I guess when someone thinks of a poker pro they think of the poker celebs on TV who win huge amounts in big tournies or mammoth pots on HSP. All poker pros are millionares!!! Everyone making less is a joke!!! Ok, whatever. The reality is much different. I plan on really stepping up in volume and play poker professionaly. I will not make over 100k. I will make enough to get by and be happy with it. Having the choice of making 60K in an office or 30K playing poker on my computer and being my own boss I will take the 50% pay cut in a heartbeat. And by putting in enough volume, like 2000sngs/ per month I can easily do that with bonuses and all.
I'm not a person used to making a lot of money. Never in my life have I made over 30K per year. I've had the shittiest jobs out there. The shit jobs I've had are endless. I just kind of drift from one horrid job to another. As far as a career goes or education, I have no ambition. None whatsoever. The whole idea of it. Getting a degree for the sole purpose of getting a high paying job. Climbing up the corporate ladder. fitting into a mold- the whole mess of it makes me sick to my stomach. If I can avoid all of this and make enough to pay my rent and feed myself and my cat by playing poker- well then thank God for poker. Some people need to be rich to enjoy their lives. Not me.
Let me tell you the story of my introduction to poker. I knew a friend of my older brother who played poker for a living in the late 90's to 2004 or so. Looking back on this story it is far from glamorous but it fascinated me nonetheless at my impressionable age that this guy made his living going to a casino everyday.
This guy lived in Atlantic City, but in reality he lived at a nearby casino. For 12 to 16 hours per day/ 6 days a week he would sit at a limit poker table and play like a rock. Strictly taking advantage of clueless tourist by playing standard ABC poker. He ate every meal at the casino with comp points. He had a studio apartment in a seedy part of AC where he jsut used for sleeping and spending his depressing empty Sundays with alcohol and his analog TV. His rent was $450/month and he was able to cover this with his poker winnings. But he had rats! I don't know how much he made a year but it wasn't much. I remember him never having money when he would visit my brother at our house. I was still fascinated by hime and his life as a gambling pro as I thought of it back then.
Now there are still poker professionals out there who live like this, but jsut as phil Ivey, durr, and PA, they are at a the micro low percentile of poker pro salary. I guess what I'm getting at here is that in most cases being a poker pro is not nearly as glamorous as it made out to be. Remember that we hear about the winners but not the losers. People losing money playing poker tend not to brag or blog about it. The majority of people are incapable of not losing money playing this game. If you are realistic about what you expect to earn, stay disciplined, have some card sense, and study to master the winning strategy of whatever stake or form of poker you play, you can make money at this game and perhaps make a living doing it. What holds most winning players back from becoming pro is lack of discipline on regards to putting in the hours. But by God don't listen to these idiots who think any poker pro making under $100K is a joke. Most poker pros make under that, well under. So if you want to play poker for a living, don't expect fame and fortune. In fact it is detrimental to your game if that's what you're after. You will most likely take too many shots and not play within you're bankroll. You will go busto a few times then quit out of frustration.
That's the mentality here,
That's the reality here,
That's why we don't call it Detroit,
We call it Amittyville.
PS. What happen to my brothers friend the poker pro?
After 6 years the games became too tough for his rocky ABC strategy to be profitable. He became a losing player and ended up jumping off the Mount Hope Bridge in Rhode Island and was successful in killing himself. Talk about a guy who refused to "make it in the real world." He was a cool guy and super nice with a good heart, but I could always tell he was doomed. He just wasn't comfortable in this world and it seemed like he wanted out with his apathetic grin and apologetic manner. So this is the guy who got me into poker. lol, no wonder I never set my expectations too high.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9rYyXk1CV_c&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i3hAplTqIjI
______________________________________________________
Been grinding sng's as usual and hope to make supernova this year. With my 10 hour a week job and sngs I barely get by. This is the life most pro or semi-pro poker players live. It's reality. Saw the most disillusioned post on 2+2 the other day. The OP is lamenting about poker being a shitty way to make a living and how he's been grinding 6 years or so. Some idiot responds that if you have been playing winning poker for 5 years you should be set for the rest of your life. Then he went on to ridicule the OP for investing too much time into poker/ no social skill/ too much time on the internet/ don't you have friends- you know the standard shit people spew.
The fact is most poker professionals make in the neighboorhood of 25k-30k a year. Basically it's a profession with the average salary of a teacher or cab driver. Of course there are people who make millions a year, but it a very small percentage- the upper upper percentile. I guess the guy who made that ignorant post only hangs out with Phil Ivey and Tom Dwan. To be honest if it weren't for sponsorship deals these guys couldn't even make enough purely playing poker in 5 years to be set for life. I guess when someone thinks of a poker pro they think of the poker celebs on TV who win huge amounts in big tournies or mammoth pots on HSP. All poker pros are millionares!!! Everyone making less is a joke!!! Ok, whatever. The reality is much different. I plan on really stepping up in volume and play poker professionaly. I will not make over 100k. I will make enough to get by and be happy with it. Having the choice of making 60K in an office or 30K playing poker on my computer and being my own boss I will take the 50% pay cut in a heartbeat. And by putting in enough volume, like 2000sngs/ per month I can easily do that with bonuses and all.
I'm not a person used to making a lot of money. Never in my life have I made over 30K per year. I've had the shittiest jobs out there. The shit jobs I've had are endless. I just kind of drift from one horrid job to another. As far as a career goes or education, I have no ambition. None whatsoever. The whole idea of it. Getting a degree for the sole purpose of getting a high paying job. Climbing up the corporate ladder. fitting into a mold- the whole mess of it makes me sick to my stomach. If I can avoid all of this and make enough to pay my rent and feed myself and my cat by playing poker- well then thank God for poker. Some people need to be rich to enjoy their lives. Not me.
Let me tell you the story of my introduction to poker. I knew a friend of my older brother who played poker for a living in the late 90's to 2004 or so. Looking back on this story it is far from glamorous but it fascinated me nonetheless at my impressionable age that this guy made his living going to a casino everyday.
This guy lived in Atlantic City, but in reality he lived at a nearby casino. For 12 to 16 hours per day/ 6 days a week he would sit at a limit poker table and play like a rock. Strictly taking advantage of clueless tourist by playing standard ABC poker. He ate every meal at the casino with comp points. He had a studio apartment in a seedy part of AC where he jsut used for sleeping and spending his depressing empty Sundays with alcohol and his analog TV. His rent was $450/month and he was able to cover this with his poker winnings. But he had rats! I don't know how much he made a year but it wasn't much. I remember him never having money when he would visit my brother at our house. I was still fascinated by hime and his life as a gambling pro as I thought of it back then.
Now there are still poker professionals out there who live like this, but jsut as phil Ivey, durr, and PA, they are at a the micro low percentile of poker pro salary. I guess what I'm getting at here is that in most cases being a poker pro is not nearly as glamorous as it made out to be. Remember that we hear about the winners but not the losers. People losing money playing poker tend not to brag or blog about it. The majority of people are incapable of not losing money playing this game. If you are realistic about what you expect to earn, stay disciplined, have some card sense, and study to master the winning strategy of whatever stake or form of poker you play, you can make money at this game and perhaps make a living doing it. What holds most winning players back from becoming pro is lack of discipline on regards to putting in the hours. But by God don't listen to these idiots who think any poker pro making under $100K is a joke. Most poker pros make under that, well under. So if you want to play poker for a living, don't expect fame and fortune. In fact it is detrimental to your game if that's what you're after. You will most likely take too many shots and not play within you're bankroll. You will go busto a few times then quit out of frustration.
That's the mentality here,
That's the reality here,
That's why we don't call it Detroit,
We call it Amittyville.
PS. What happen to my brothers friend the poker pro?
After 6 years the games became too tough for his rocky ABC strategy to be profitable. He became a losing player and ended up jumping off the Mount Hope Bridge in Rhode Island and was successful in killing himself. Talk about a guy who refused to "make it in the real world." He was a cool guy and super nice with a good heart, but I could always tell he was doomed. He just wasn't comfortable in this world and it seemed like he wanted out with his apathetic grin and apologetic manner. So this is the guy who got me into poker. lol, no wonder I never set my expectations too high.
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