Monday, October 19, 2009

I'll use the dark shadow

this must be the song you hear when you float off to heaven:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EyI4p0yjDQ


HAven't been playing all too much, but I was at $5400 and am now at $4600. Forty buy-in downswing. That's about as bad as it has ever gotten for me, but still it hasn't really bothered me or effected my game. I'm still able to withdraw $500 a month with bonuses and not have it effect my roll.

Still, I am basically living on very little, essentially in poverty. Luckily I have a wealthy dad to fall back on if shit hits the fan. I try to pay my own way though- not having much money to live gets to me thoiugh. I live on those 60cent tino burritos and brocolli crowns. I have food stamps but they go quick. kind of pathetic how my life has turned out. Given every opputrunity, from a wealthy famil and qt 30 I end up essentially living in poverty. lol

I think once I have the roll to multi table the 50's (assuming I can beat that level) and find the work ethic to put in at least 30 hours a week, I will have much more money coming in and live mroe comfotable. My therapist keeps telling me my metnal illness(schizoaffective) is the reason why my life is a monumental failure, but I cant blame everything on that.

I am a little worried I may get fired from my job for showing up drunk Friday. I hope my boss didn't notice, but I hardly remeber working. If you are new to my blog, I have a partime- job claeaning at night. I hardly have much contact with my boss so maybe she didn't notice I was drunk. Really have to stay off the vodka b4 work. Thats all drink now. Cheap vodka. But I live off this money and the poker money so im very nervous about getting fired. I'll find out tonight if anyone noticed and keep you updated.

all for now.

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