Brooms lean in vacant rooms

Sup. This is my favorite rapper,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9rYyXk1CV_c&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i3hAplTqIjI

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Been grinding sng's as usual and hope to make supernova this year. With my 10 hour a week job and sngs I barely get by. This is the life most pro or semi-pro poker players live. It's reality. Saw the most disillusioned post on 2+2 the other day. The OP is lamenting about poker being a shitty way to make a living and how he's been grinding 6 years or so. Some idiot responds that if you have been playing winning poker for 5 years you should be set for the rest of your life. Then he went on to ridicule the OP for investing too much time into poker/ no social skill/ too much time on the internet/ don't you have friends- you know the standard shit people spew.

The fact is most poker professionals make in the neighboorhood of 25k-30k a year. Basically it's a profession with the average salary of a teacher or cab driver. Of course there are people who make millions a year, but it a very small percentage- the upper upper percentile. I guess the guy who made that ignorant post only hangs out with Phil Ivey and Tom Dwan. To be honest if it weren't for sponsorship deals these guys couldn't even make enough purely playing poker in 5 years to be set for life. I guess when someone thinks of a poker pro they think of the poker celebs on TV who win huge amounts in big tournies or mammoth pots on HSP. All poker pros are millionares!!! Everyone making less is a joke!!! Ok, whatever. The reality is much different. I plan on really stepping up in volume and play poker professionaly. I will not make over 100k. I will make enough to get by and be happy with it. Having the choice of making 60K in an office or 30K playing poker on my computer and being my own boss I will take the 50% pay cut in a heartbeat. And by putting in enough volume, like 2000sngs/ per month I can easily do that with bonuses and all.

I'm not a person used to making a lot of money. Never in my life have I made over 30K per year. I've had the shittiest jobs out there. The shit jobs I've had are endless. I just kind of drift from one horrid job to another. As far as a career goes or education, I have no ambition. None whatsoever. The whole idea of it. Getting a degree for the sole purpose of getting a high paying job. Climbing up the corporate ladder. fitting into a mold- the whole mess of it makes me sick to my stomach. If I can avoid all of this and make enough to pay my rent and feed myself and my cat by playing poker- well then thank God for poker. Some people need to be rich to enjoy their lives. Not me.

Let me tell you the story of my introduction to poker. I knew a friend of my older brother who played poker for a living in the late 90's to 2004 or so. Looking back on this story it is far from glamorous but it fascinated me nonetheless at my impressionable age that this guy made his living going to a casino everyday.

This guy lived in Atlantic City, but in reality he lived at a nearby casino. For 12 to 16 hours per day/ 6 days a week he would sit at a limit poker table and play like a rock. Strictly taking advantage of clueless tourist by playing standard ABC poker. He ate every meal at the casino with comp points. He had a studio apartment in a seedy part of AC where he jsut used for sleeping and spending his depressing empty Sundays with alcohol and his analog TV. His rent was $450/month and he was able to cover this with his poker winnings. But he had rats! I don't know how much he made a year but it wasn't much. I remember him never having money when he would visit my brother at our house. I was still fascinated by hime and his life as a gambling pro as I thought of it back then.

Now there are still poker professionals out there who live like this, but jsut as phil Ivey, durr, and PA, they are at a the micro low percentile of poker pro salary. I guess what I'm getting at here is that in most cases being a poker pro is not nearly as glamorous as it made out to be. Remember that we hear about the winners but not the losers. People losing money playing poker tend not to brag or blog about it. The majority of people are incapable of not losing money playing this game. If you are realistic about what you expect to earn, stay disciplined, have some card sense, and study to master the winning strategy of whatever stake or form of poker you play, you can make money at this game and perhaps make a living doing it. What holds most winning players back from becoming pro is lack of discipline on regards to putting in the hours. But by God don't listen to these idiots who think any poker pro making under $100K is a joke. Most poker pros make under that, well under. So if you want to play poker for a living, don't expect fame and fortune. In fact it is detrimental to your game if that's what you're after. You will most likely take too many shots and not play within you're bankroll. You will go busto a few times then quit out of frustration.

That's the mentality here,
That's the reality here,
That's why we don't call it Detroit,
We call it Amittyville.

PS. What happen to my brothers friend the poker pro?
After 6 years the games became too tough for his rocky ABC strategy to be profitable. He became a losing player and ended up jumping off the Mount Hope Bridge in Rhode Island and was successful in killing himself. Talk about a guy who refused to "make it in the real world." He was a cool guy and super nice with a good heart, but I could always tell he was doomed. He just wasn't comfortable in this world and it seemed like he wanted out with his apathetic grin and apologetic manner. So this is the guy who got me into poker. lol, no wonder I never set my expectations too high.

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le moon

back to the 80's

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n7CuJ8cR9sg

OK, so I didn't get fired for being drunk at work last week, thank the good Lord in Heaven. I'm surprised no one noticed I was drunk cuz, as I said, I only remember bits and pieces of working that night.

My last post I leaned too far into self-pity and fell into it. Sorry for that.

Haven't played any poker in two 1/2 weeks now(hate poker but respect the game and its pros). been reading and even writing a little which I have not done in years(writing that is). I don't have the money to buy any new books so I have been re-reading books I read a few years ago. Philip K Dick's flow my tears, a biography on Thomas Jefferson, and Jack Kerouac's Dharma bums. Just been reading all day and night. The only TV I watch now is sports (there really is nothing else worht watching cept for Cheers). Looking forward to the Celtics season which starts on Tuesday. Unfortunately I work at night from 8:30 to 10:30 and I miss all the Celtics and Red Sox games during the week. So the weekends are for watching sports and nothing else.

It's fun though re-discovering Kerouac and Philip K dick, wish I had some money to buy new books though from different authors cuz I have read all of Dick and Kerouac including biographies (ebooks of the former). And by God please read two different biographers of a famus figure. You always have to read biographies by two different biographers to balance bias and discrepancy.

Sometimes I worry my cat has gotten sick of me.

I'll use the dark shadow

this must be the song you hear when you float off to heaven:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EyI4p0yjDQ


HAven't been playing all too much, but I was at $5400 and am now at $4600. Forty buy-in downswing. That's about as bad as it has ever gotten for me, but still it hasn't really bothered me or effected my game. I'm still able to withdraw $500 a month with bonuses and not have it effect my roll.

Still, I am basically living on very little, essentially in poverty. Luckily I have a wealthy dad to fall back on if shit hits the fan. I try to pay my own way though- not having much money to live gets to me thoiugh. I live on those 60cent tino burritos and brocolli crowns. I have food stamps but they go quick. kind of pathetic how my life has turned out. Given every opputrunity, from a wealthy famil and qt 30 I end up essentially living in poverty. lol

I think once I have the roll to multi table the 50's (assuming I can beat that level) and find the work ethic to put in at least 30 hours a week, I will have much more money coming in and live mroe comfotable. My therapist keeps telling me my metnal illness(schizoaffective) is the reason why my life is a monumental failure, but I cant blame everything on that.

I am a little worried I may get fired from my job for showing up drunk Friday. I hope my boss didn't notice, but I hardly remeber working. If you are new to my blog, I have a partime- job claeaning at night. I hardly have much contact with my boss so maybe she didn't notice I was drunk. Really have to stay off the vodka b4 work. Thats all drink now. Cheap vodka. But I live off this money and the poker money so im very nervous about getting fired. I'll find out tonight if anyone noticed and keep you updated.

all for now.

alcohol

song of the month

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uhiy6yFzIbw


I'll have to say it was of the nicer songs to come out in sometime. Josh Ritter is a hugely underated musician. Here's another gem:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kqLssKusGzM

Such nice songs.

Poker is going well. Your amazing duval76 has turned $2 into $5300.
One of the things that I pride myself on is never going on tilt. This is a crucial ingrediant to becoming a successful poker player. However, I am prone to mini-tilt. I had the worst nigh last night playing. I was being sucked out on (esoecially on the bubble or 5-handed) over and over. I think 4 times i got sucked out with a two-outer on or near the bubble. This led to a mini-tilt which cost me one sng. At least I recognized my tilitedness and quicly close the mother fuckin goddammed pokerstars client.

I really don't seem to enjoy poker, but again, I hope to make my living doing this in the future. It sure as helll is better than working in an office. However, working outside on a farm was the best job I ever had. It didn't pay all that well, but I enjoyed it relativly speaking.

My job was basically feeding and cleaning out the pens of chickens. pigs, cows, and goats. Easily the best job I ever had. But duval76, did it beat working at a soap factory? Yes, lo it did. The soap factory job consisted of astnading in onbe place for EIGHT hours and picking up soap bars and putting them in a packaging box. OVer anfd Over I have had some horrid jobs and so being an sng grinder is bearable to me.

In other news, I have been drinking too much. I play poker drunk all the time. It helps me put in the hours. Some people say to never to play drunk, I don't think it matter I play the same either way.



duval76

i've got 240 channels of shit on the tv to choose from

song of the month

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TIEma4NAc9w

so i have been putting i n the hours lat week and my poker blance is up to $4300. I'm about 100 vpps to get the $285 bonus. I shot up to $4800 then went back down to $4100 then went up to $4600 then hit a downswing and dropped to $3800. Fought my emotions and continued to play to get back up to $4300. Saturday I played drunk and don't hardly remeber playing which was my latest session. I started drinking vodka around 10 in the morning and had consumed about half a handle until that night.

Been fighting depression all week. I am just happy I have held on to my job though. No matter how demeaning it is and insignifacnt I have kept this job for half a year and only missed one week which was b/c of my shingles. Havent missed a day otherwise. You see in the past when I got depressed I would just qit work and nurse my wonds in bed, but I have gotten better at handling the depression and I fight through it and fullfill all my obligations regardless.

With my job and the poker I'm taking in about 3k a month which isn't bad. I can live off of it. I really havent been playing online poker for very long, but it looks like I can take in 3k a month whikle only having to work a real job 10 hours a week.

might be able to make more when i move up to the 50's or could even m,ake more at the 30's, thats a conservative guesstamite.

RWM's thoughts

since it's july 4th or thereabouts, I figured I would let my cat Runs With Mice write a brief statement. Ever since I told her I had a blog she has been bugging me to write an entry. First off of course this is HER song of the month. I decided to let her pick the song of the month, this entry is kind of her thing. Here is Runs With Mice's song of the month.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZZivl5iKCo

here is Runs With Mice:

Hello I'm Run Wit Mouse, duval76' ams kitty ma cat! It's been six months now that I have living been , ben.. benn living been duavl76. Most of the days is what I do I just lay on the armchair and i tell you wat tend to sleep all days until four. Duval76 like to watch the TV and I keeps a tellin go t gos for the poker, but he just keeps watchin. My favorit TV shows he watches are cheers and queer eye for the straight guy.

Duval76 he works for two of the hours and all he does is mop the floor! But I get nervous when he left cuz I dont like him gone. Howm I surposed to eat i cant go out site and eat a mousey. So i greet duval76 when he comes back from mopping the floor like I was a doggy and I is very happy to sees him back cuz is the when he come back sometime to fill my water. And every week the check comes from the governament.
-runs with mouse

_end transmission_

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK.
So that's my cat Runs With Mice. I do watch queer eye for the straight guy every now and then. Kind of embarrasing, but that show just kind of draws me in and I have to watch it. I haven't played poker in three weeks. Was actually very sick for a week with an unexpected ailment-shingles. Shingles is much more common in those who are 60 or over or whose immune system is compromised. But I got it anyway. A week before having shingles I had the flu so my defenses were down. I had the shingles on my lower back and couldn't walk or stand up for three days, it was brutal.

Im at $3100 in my poker account. Trying to save up money to get the fuck out of dodge. To re-invent myself elsewhere and be financially independent. Reading a great book right now called "galilee" by clive barker. Clive barker is kind of a poor man's Stephen King. Last I read of Barker was "the damnation game" which was also engrossing. I'm sure all of my readers have now finished "confederacy of dunces" which I mentioned a couple of months ago. "Galilee" is 600 pages so I will give you some time, but get reading.

pace, duval76