the beehive

Here's the song of the month

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-ITv4OBV9c

book of the month I'll start doing too.
confederacy of dunces-john kennedy toole (funniest book I have ever read)

I wrote up a long entry but it didn't make any sense so I deleted it. I was having a bad day and it was really depressing too. I have recently turned 30 and that was getting me down. I have moved up to the $20 sngs as my bankroll has passed $2000. I always wait for 100 buy ins. Had a really good few weeks at the tables and got $150 for finishing 5th in the weekly sng leaderboard and also b/c of that got an entry into a monthly shootout.

I said in an earlier entry i would give poker advice and here is some non-specific advice. Play friday and saturday nights if you have nothing else going on.. If you play between 10pm-2am est. time you will find a lot of drunk recreational players spewing chips. I also said I hadn't noticed a dip in my ROI 8-tabling, but that was a stupid thing to say as I for funhad a smaple size of like 50 games. It takes 500 or so games to get a true ROI. Most knowledgable sng players say it takes more than that, but 500 is enough imo. Also, please don't play drunk yourself. 2 or 3 drinks is fine, in fact tight players may notice some improvement in their game after a couple drinks, but don't play drunk. I have been guilty of this and have on more than one occasion puked while playing which is no fun at all. Passed out a few times too and awoke in my chair with the site still on and forfettied money.

Trying to figure what exactly I am going to do with this blog. I might sports bets picks. I do pretty well betting on sports and I figure it would be a nice thing to do for my readers- as a reward for reading my blog. Now, I only bet for fun, just play money because betting on sports online is illegal. I certainly don't encourage you to bet real money.

While we are on sports, my basketball team, the Boston Celtics are the best team in the NBA. They have taken a small dip in the overall standings and have the third best record in the NBA, but they are the best team. They took this dive b/c they haven't had Garnett and their point guard Rondo. Rondo is a hugely underated player imo. He has such court awareness and quick hands. He is the best point guard in the NBA. He can rebound too. So i am not worried about the celtics.

Still working at my unglamorous job mopping floors and such and actually don't feel so bad about it with the economy and all. They interviewed 5 people for the job and picked me so that's a confidence booster. Who knows how many resumes they got. My worst job was as i sadi picking trash. To be more specific this was a recycling facility up in Vermont. All the recyclbels picked up by thge trucks got dumped here. The glass went in one area, but everything else had to be manually sorted and thrown into their appropraite places. It was all just dumped on conveyor belts and I and other people frantically picked and sorted in a line. Wow did that job suck and I was only paid $7.25/hour. So this new job I have is a step up from that I guess.

My cat runs with mice is doing great. I think she's happy to be here and not in the streets or in a cage. For a society to function properly we need it just. That's what I was getting at in my previous post. Unless some kid in the inner city is really book smart and scores well on sAT and super motivated they have no chance in a shitty school. There are plenty of kids who are not as bright going to better colleges, b/c as I said a C is like an A at a good high school. That's how colleges look at it. So when you pay your taxes and or complain about "free handouts" keep that in mind. Then of course there is the cost of college which is another unjust thing. See I realize this b/c I don't have a college degree. A college degree gets your foot in the door for high paying jobs for the most part. So then they are criticed and unfairly prosecuted for selling some pot to make ends meat. No wonder there is so much anger in some of these kids. They are living in one of the wealthiest countries in human history, but they are left out and shat upon.

This isn't just a white black things it's a rich poor thing. Basically, we need to give equal oppurtunity, but there is no easy way to fix this. The wealthy paying more of a percentage in taxes is one way and you shouldn't bitch about it. I remember when Obama was running in the general election and I heard these republican talking heads ranting about Obama that liberal wants to raise taxes on your hard earned money! Well, that's n ot true. It was only for people making over 200grand or something. There are some real shameless people out there and they tend to appear on TV a lot and are attracted to politics. Then these same people want to tell my I can't play online poker. When it is a signifacnt portion of my income? But you can bet on lotteries on line. And the ponies (a rich mans gambling habits). Gfet the fuck out of here.

I just want to thank everyone for reading my blog. Feel free to comment. I had a bad week last week and depression was creeping in. Here's one thing I do when I'm feeling depressed. I put on Chopin (a piano composer) or some other elaborate form of music and I dim the lights and lay in bed. The peaks and flow of the music are like life. The good times and the bad. For people with menatl illness these are magnified. And I just lsiten to the msuic and when the tempo slows and the notes are lower i say OK, that is where I am right now. And then I say it will pass and the msuci will become faster with higher tones, and there will be happier days. The msuic is calming and too and it is intricate and complex like life. Thats one thing that helps me.

That magnification of feelings thats the thing I've noticed with many people with mental illness. When people talk about the dulling effect of some psych meds and how that is a downside. Well, some people need this. The alternative is owrse. Basically, what I'm saying is if you haven't suffered from a mental illness or educated in the matter, don't be so quick to judge. Walk a mile in someon's shoes. It's an old idiom, but as all old idiom's it needs to be pounded into people's heads. Timeless wisdom.

until next time this is duval76
over and out.