song of the month
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uhiy6yFzIbw
I'll have to say it was of the nicer songs to come out in sometime. Josh Ritter is a hugely underated musician. Here's another gem:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kqLssKusGzM
Such nice songs.
Poker is going well. Your amazing duval76 has turned $2 into $5300.
One of the things that I pride myself on is never going on tilt. This is a crucial ingrediant to becoming a successful poker player. However, I am prone to mini-tilt. I had the worst nigh last night playing. I was being sucked out on (esoecially on the bubble or 5-handed) over and over. I think 4 times i got sucked out with a two-outer on or near the bubble. This led to a mini-tilt which cost me one sng. At least I recognized my tilitedness and quicly close the mother fuckin goddammed pokerstars client.
I really don't seem to enjoy poker, but again, I hope to make my living doing this in the future. It sure as helll is better than working in an office. However, working outside on a farm was the best job I ever had. It didn't pay all that well, but I enjoyed it relativly speaking.
My job was basically feeding and cleaning out the pens of chickens. pigs, cows, and goats. Easily the best job I ever had. But duval76, did it beat working at a soap factory? Yes, lo it did. The soap factory job consisted of astnading in onbe place for EIGHT hours and picking up soap bars and putting them in a packaging box. OVer anfd Over I have had some horrid jobs and so being an sng grinder is bearable to me.
In other news, I have been drinking too much. I play poker drunk all the time. It helps me put in the hours. Some people say to never to play drunk, I don't think it matter I play the same either way.
duval76
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
i've got 240 channels of shit on the tv to choose from
song of the month
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TIEma4NAc9w
so i have been putting i n the hours lat week and my poker blance is up to $4300. I'm about 100 vpps to get the $285 bonus. I shot up to $4800 then went back down to $4100 then went up to $4600 then hit a downswing and dropped to $3800. Fought my emotions and continued to play to get back up to $4300. Saturday I played drunk and don't hardly remeber playing which was my latest session. I started drinking vodka around 10 in the morning and had consumed about half a handle until that night.
Been fighting depression all week. I am just happy I have held on to my job though. No matter how demeaning it is and insignifacnt I have kept this job for half a year and only missed one week which was b/c of my shingles. Havent missed a day otherwise. You see in the past when I got depressed I would just qit work and nurse my wonds in bed, but I have gotten better at handling the depression and I fight through it and fullfill all my obligations regardless.
With my job and the poker I'm taking in about 3k a month which isn't bad. I can live off of it. I really havent been playing online poker for very long, but it looks like I can take in 3k a month whikle only having to work a real job 10 hours a week.
might be able to make more when i move up to the 50's or could even m,ake more at the 30's, thats a conservative guesstamite.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TIEma4NAc9w
so i have been putting i n the hours lat week and my poker blance is up to $4300. I'm about 100 vpps to get the $285 bonus. I shot up to $4800 then went back down to $4100 then went up to $4600 then hit a downswing and dropped to $3800. Fought my emotions and continued to play to get back up to $4300. Saturday I played drunk and don't hardly remeber playing which was my latest session. I started drinking vodka around 10 in the morning and had consumed about half a handle until that night.
Been fighting depression all week. I am just happy I have held on to my job though. No matter how demeaning it is and insignifacnt I have kept this job for half a year and only missed one week which was b/c of my shingles. Havent missed a day otherwise. You see in the past when I got depressed I would just qit work and nurse my wonds in bed, but I have gotten better at handling the depression and I fight through it and fullfill all my obligations regardless.
With my job and the poker I'm taking in about 3k a month which isn't bad. I can live off of it. I really havent been playing online poker for very long, but it looks like I can take in 3k a month whikle only having to work a real job 10 hours a week.
might be able to make more when i move up to the 50's or could even m,ake more at the 30's, thats a conservative guesstamite.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
RWM's thoughts
since it's july 4th or thereabouts, I figured I would let my cat Runs With Mice write a brief statement. Ever since I told her I had a blog she has been bugging me to write an entry. First off of course this is HER song of the month. I decided to let her pick the song of the month, this entry is kind of her thing. Here is Runs With Mice's song of the month.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZZivl5iKCo
here is Runs With Mice:
Hello I'm Run Wit Mouse, duval76' ams kitty ma cat! It's been six months now that I have living been , ben.. benn living been duavl76. Most of the days is what I do I just lay on the armchair and i tell you wat tend to sleep all days until four. Duval76 like to watch the TV and I keeps a tellin go t gos for the poker, but he just keeps watchin. My favorit TV shows he watches are cheers and queer eye for the straight guy.
Duval76 he works for two of the hours and all he does is mop the floor! But I get nervous when he left cuz I dont like him gone. Howm I surposed to eat i cant go out site and eat a mousey. So i greet duval76 when he comes back from mopping the floor like I was a doggy and I is very happy to sees him back cuz is the when he come back sometime to fill my water. And every week the check comes from the governament.
-runs with mouse
_end transmission_
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK.
So that's my cat Runs With Mice. I do watch queer eye for the straight guy every now and then. Kind of embarrasing, but that show just kind of draws me in and I have to watch it. I haven't played poker in three weeks. Was actually very sick for a week with an unexpected ailment-shingles. Shingles is much more common in those who are 60 or over or whose immune system is compromised. But I got it anyway. A week before having shingles I had the flu so my defenses were down. I had the shingles on my lower back and couldn't walk or stand up for three days, it was brutal.
Im at $3100 in my poker account. Trying to save up money to get the fuck out of dodge. To re-invent myself elsewhere and be financially independent. Reading a great book right now called "galilee" by clive barker. Clive barker is kind of a poor man's Stephen King. Last I read of Barker was "the damnation game" which was also engrossing. I'm sure all of my readers have now finished "confederacy of dunces" which I mentioned a couple of months ago. "Galilee" is 600 pages so I will give you some time, but get reading.
pace, duval76
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZZivl5iKCo
here is Runs With Mice:
Hello I'm Run Wit Mouse, duval76' ams kitty ma cat! It's been six months now that I have living been , ben.. benn living been duavl76. Most of the days is what I do I just lay on the armchair and i tell you wat tend to sleep all days until four. Duval76 like to watch the TV and I keeps a tellin go t gos for the poker, but he just keeps watchin. My favorit TV shows he watches are cheers and queer eye for the straight guy.
Duval76 he works for two of the hours and all he does is mop the floor! But I get nervous when he left cuz I dont like him gone. Howm I surposed to eat i cant go out site and eat a mousey. So i greet duval76 when he comes back from mopping the floor like I was a doggy and I is very happy to sees him back cuz is the when he come back sometime to fill my water. And every week the check comes from the governament.
-runs with mouse
_end transmission_
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK.
So that's my cat Runs With Mice. I do watch queer eye for the straight guy every now and then. Kind of embarrasing, but that show just kind of draws me in and I have to watch it. I haven't played poker in three weeks. Was actually very sick for a week with an unexpected ailment-shingles. Shingles is much more common in those who are 60 or over or whose immune system is compromised. But I got it anyway. A week before having shingles I had the flu so my defenses were down. I had the shingles on my lower back and couldn't walk or stand up for three days, it was brutal.
Im at $3100 in my poker account. Trying to save up money to get the fuck out of dodge. To re-invent myself elsewhere and be financially independent. Reading a great book right now called "galilee" by clive barker. Clive barker is kind of a poor man's Stephen King. Last I read of Barker was "the damnation game" which was also engrossing. I'm sure all of my readers have now finished "confederacy of dunces" which I mentioned a couple of months ago. "Galilee" is 600 pages so I will give you some time, but get reading.
pace, duval76
Monday, May 18, 2009
Check In
Hello dear readers!
song of the month
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WULkRzu7_SE
crunk ain't dead.
I've had a wonderful couple weeks at the tables. I made about 1k in my last 26 hours of playing which constituted 2 weeks. What I want to do is put in 20 hours per week. I actually bought a stop watch to make sure I put in the necessary hours.
My bankroll is at $3200. At 5k i will move up to the 50's and playing 8 tables at once I shoul make some decent money. And maybe I will move to Oklahoma City or Atlanta and pay all my expenses through poker. Rent is real cheap in those cities. I'm paying $1200 for a 1 bedrrom (well my dad is paying half, which I hate) in Mass. My goal is to be financially independent, I'm 30 years old for christ sake. So maybe I'll just move to a place where the cost of living is lower to reach that goal. I'm hesistent though with making a living playing online poker because I don't know if I will even be able to play in the future. I just will they will legalize and regulate or stop trying to ban it at least so that it will remain how it is now.
I don't want to work for some cracker who tretas me like shit cuz he's on a power trip.
want be own boss.
next time,
-duval76
song of the month
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WULkRzu7_SE
crunk ain't dead.
I've had a wonderful couple weeks at the tables. I made about 1k in my last 26 hours of playing which constituted 2 weeks. What I want to do is put in 20 hours per week. I actually bought a stop watch to make sure I put in the necessary hours.
My bankroll is at $3200. At 5k i will move up to the 50's and playing 8 tables at once I shoul make some decent money. And maybe I will move to Oklahoma City or Atlanta and pay all my expenses through poker. Rent is real cheap in those cities. I'm paying $1200 for a 1 bedrrom (well my dad is paying half, which I hate) in Mass. My goal is to be financially independent, I'm 30 years old for christ sake. So maybe I'll just move to a place where the cost of living is lower to reach that goal. I'm hesistent though with making a living playing online poker because I don't know if I will even be able to play in the future. I just will they will legalize and regulate or stop trying to ban it at least so that it will remain how it is now.
I don't want to work for some cracker who tretas me like shit cuz he's on a power trip.
want be own boss.
next time,
-duval76
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Stagnation..
Stagnation without relaxation. That's how my game is going. I'm down 5 buy ins (pretty much even) for 2 weeks or so. Lot of stress involved as well. I play an sng style that is aggressive and prone to swings. When I stay even I get restless and tend to make plays 4 handed or five handed. My bluffs have panned out and I feel I have almost willed myself to break even considering how the cards have fallen lately. So I am actually happy with my play to have only been down 5 buy ins with my bad luck. My nerves get somewhat worn though. I work part-time at a job I hate, and I play poker part-time to supplement my income. The poker is mentally draining and not too enjoybale anymore, but I make more money playing poker than at my dead end job that I hate. The two work togehter to make a modest, at best, income. I decided a part time job would be a good idea as safety net- the guarnateed income. As I move up in stakes I will make more playing poker, provided I can beat those stakes, and make a decent income. That's what I'm aiming for and have been aiming for since I started with $2. What a fuckin grind though.
here's the song of the month btw.\
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5uBEG_LArTQ
This is a great group- tatu.
Have always been a huge fan and the builup for this song is greta.
The lyrics are gold as well.
I strongly suggest you copy and paste the link. I don't do a standard link cuz I don't wnat my blog to be linked up to youtube. Between you and me I would actually not like a huge following for my blog or to be too visible. I move in the shadows, quiet as a flame.
Not doing great, I am experiencing depression but it is not depbilitating. sometimes I really have to push myself to get through the day. If I give in to the depression that will mean I simply go to sleep and miss work and not play poker and miss any other obligations I have for the day. I have not done this and I have grinded my way through another week. I have gotten to the point where I can manage my depression and not let it disrupt my life, as it did before, because I have grown more accustomed to the feeling and have been able to cope with it better with time.
when I was younger the depression would scare me. I would worry the depression would never go away and the feeling would be new to me. It would be shocking, horrible, and deflating. A sense of panic would rise in me and I would ask myself 'will this ever go away'? So with experience I know that it does go away, and the only way to beat depression is to fight it. There is however a great sense of failure when I look at my life. But I have to remember, as my therapist told me, I was dealt a bad hand with my schizoaffective disorder, and have actually done better than most with my diagnosis and have handled it very well.
There are times i take pleasure in my own psychic pain. It sounds strange, but soetimes I am glad my life is not a walk in the park. Akmost as if my feelings of despair and hopelessness are only natural repsonses to life. There are times when I almost take on my misery and challenge myself. Can I do this or do that when I feel like this. Trudging through life and doing everything that is expected of me even when I feel horrible, it has become somewhat of a challenge. A challenge I have come to enjoy. Sounds a little starnge, maybe doesn't make much sense, but that's where I am right now.
here's the song of the month btw.\
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5uBEG_LArTQ
This is a great group- tatu.
Have always been a huge fan and the builup for this song is greta.
The lyrics are gold as well.
I strongly suggest you copy and paste the link. I don't do a standard link cuz I don't wnat my blog to be linked up to youtube. Between you and me I would actually not like a huge following for my blog or to be too visible. I move in the shadows, quiet as a flame.
Not doing great, I am experiencing depression but it is not depbilitating. sometimes I really have to push myself to get through the day. If I give in to the depression that will mean I simply go to sleep and miss work and not play poker and miss any other obligations I have for the day. I have not done this and I have grinded my way through another week. I have gotten to the point where I can manage my depression and not let it disrupt my life, as it did before, because I have grown more accustomed to the feeling and have been able to cope with it better with time.
when I was younger the depression would scare me. I would worry the depression would never go away and the feeling would be new to me. It would be shocking, horrible, and deflating. A sense of panic would rise in me and I would ask myself 'will this ever go away'? So with experience I know that it does go away, and the only way to beat depression is to fight it. There is however a great sense of failure when I look at my life. But I have to remember, as my therapist told me, I was dealt a bad hand with my schizoaffective disorder, and have actually done better than most with my diagnosis and have handled it very well.
There are times i take pleasure in my own psychic pain. It sounds strange, but soetimes I am glad my life is not a walk in the park. Akmost as if my feelings of despair and hopelessness are only natural repsonses to life. There are times when I almost take on my misery and challenge myself. Can I do this or do that when I feel like this. Trudging through life and doing everything that is expected of me even when I feel horrible, it has become somewhat of a challenge. A challenge I have come to enjoy. Sounds a little starnge, maybe doesn't make much sense, but that's where I am right now.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
bangin'
that's what this song is bangin'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rTufRpbdZg
so if your looking for a song that ain't bangin and that sucks, don't copy and paste this link, cuz you will be dissapointed.
The last sunday before I played in the battle of planets triplke shootout. Shootout tourny's you have to win your table and then you move on and play other people who won their tables. So there is no continous rotation. It is a multi-table tourny, but new players are not added onto the tables to replace someone who bust out. Instead, the table is played out until there is one winner.
Well, I won my first table. For this I recieved about $200. The next tabkle (which is all players who won their previous tables) i got heads up, but ended up coming second . :(
I had a three to one chip lead, but blew it on a bluff and then a slow play on my part with KK. The first hand that did me in, (he showed his cards so I can be sure of what happened) He raised in the SB with 62 offsuit. I called with Q9 offsuit. Flop came Kd, 2s, Ac. I bet out the pot and he re-raised me all in. It was a good play, but I was suprised that he didn't fold. So then I busted by completing the SB with KK. That means I just called and slowplayed the KK. He bet out and I pusdhed pre flop. He called and hit a straight on the river and bam it was over. If I had beat this guy the least I could have won was $900 and first place was $12,000. Oh well. I'm still grinding the $20 sngs and am at $2500 as of this blog entry.
-duval76
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rTufRpbdZg
so if your looking for a song that ain't bangin and that sucks, don't copy and paste this link, cuz you will be dissapointed.
The last sunday before I played in the battle of planets triplke shootout. Shootout tourny's you have to win your table and then you move on and play other people who won their tables. So there is no continous rotation. It is a multi-table tourny, but new players are not added onto the tables to replace someone who bust out. Instead, the table is played out until there is one winner.
Well, I won my first table. For this I recieved about $200. The next tabkle (which is all players who won their previous tables) i got heads up, but ended up coming second . :(
I had a three to one chip lead, but blew it on a bluff and then a slow play on my part with KK. The first hand that did me in, (he showed his cards so I can be sure of what happened) He raised in the SB with 62 offsuit. I called with Q9 offsuit. Flop came Kd, 2s, Ac. I bet out the pot and he re-raised me all in. It was a good play, but I was suprised that he didn't fold. So then I busted by completing the SB with KK. That means I just called and slowplayed the KK. He bet out and I pusdhed pre flop. He called and hit a straight on the river and bam it was over. If I had beat this guy the least I could have won was $900 and first place was $12,000. Oh well. I'm still grinding the $20 sngs and am at $2500 as of this blog entry.
-duval76
Sunday, March 22, 2009
the old lady
In regards to the sleep paralysis I never really researched it until it happened six months ago and I only read up on it on wikipedia since it happens so rarely. So I decided to youtube it and it's a little weird other people mention the old lady as well in a ghostly vision. So here is the link.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPMUz8RAjks&feature=related
I suggest if anyone has this experience with the old maid - don't look at her. Just close your eyes and she will go away. On saturday I saw the flower apron,very old and torn and I did not care to look up at the face. Just closed my eyes.
weird, it didn't scare me, just got the sense of a very negative energy and a malicious presence.
If I saw a face or she rushed at me I might have been a little freaked out. But luckily I wasn't fully aware.
I'm gonna have to watch all 5 parts now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPMUz8RAjks&feature=related
I suggest if anyone has this experience with the old maid - don't look at her. Just close your eyes and she will go away. On saturday I saw the flower apron,very old and torn and I did not care to look up at the face. Just closed my eyes.
weird, it didn't scare me, just got the sense of a very negative energy and a malicious presence.
If I saw a face or she rushed at me I might have been a little freaked out. But luckily I wasn't fully aware.
I'm gonna have to watch all 5 parts now.
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