le moon

back to the 80's

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n7CuJ8cR9sg

OK, so I didn't get fired for being drunk at work last week, thank the good Lord in Heaven. I'm surprised no one noticed I was drunk cuz, as I said, I only remember bits and pieces of working that night.

My last post I leaned too far into self-pity and fell into it. Sorry for that.

Haven't played any poker in two 1/2 weeks now(hate poker but respect the game and its pros). been reading and even writing a little which I have not done in years(writing that is). I don't have the money to buy any new books so I have been re-reading books I read a few years ago. Philip K Dick's flow my tears, a biography on Thomas Jefferson, and Jack Kerouac's Dharma bums. Just been reading all day and night. The only TV I watch now is sports (there really is nothing else worht watching cept for Cheers). Looking forward to the Celtics season which starts on Tuesday. Unfortunately I work at night from 8:30 to 10:30 and I miss all the Celtics and Red Sox games during the week. So the weekends are for watching sports and nothing else.

It's fun though re-discovering Kerouac and Philip K dick, wish I had some money to buy new books though from different authors cuz I have read all of Dick and Kerouac including biographies (ebooks of the former). And by God please read two different biographers of a famus figure. You always have to read biographies by two different biographers to balance bias and discrepancy.

Sometimes I worry my cat has gotten sick of me.

I'll use the dark shadow

this must be the song you hear when you float off to heaven:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EyI4p0yjDQ


HAven't been playing all too much, but I was at $5400 and am now at $4600. Forty buy-in downswing. That's about as bad as it has ever gotten for me, but still it hasn't really bothered me or effected my game. I'm still able to withdraw $500 a month with bonuses and not have it effect my roll.

Still, I am basically living on very little, essentially in poverty. Luckily I have a wealthy dad to fall back on if shit hits the fan. I try to pay my own way though- not having much money to live gets to me thoiugh. I live on those 60cent tino burritos and brocolli crowns. I have food stamps but they go quick. kind of pathetic how my life has turned out. Given every opputrunity, from a wealthy famil and qt 30 I end up essentially living in poverty. lol

I think once I have the roll to multi table the 50's (assuming I can beat that level) and find the work ethic to put in at least 30 hours a week, I will have much more money coming in and live mroe comfotable. My therapist keeps telling me my metnal illness(schizoaffective) is the reason why my life is a monumental failure, but I cant blame everything on that.

I am a little worried I may get fired from my job for showing up drunk Friday. I hope my boss didn't notice, but I hardly remeber working. If you are new to my blog, I have a partime- job claeaning at night. I hardly have much contact with my boss so maybe she didn't notice I was drunk. Really have to stay off the vodka b4 work. Thats all drink now. Cheap vodka. But I live off this money and the poker money so im very nervous about getting fired. I'll find out tonight if anyone noticed and keep you updated.

all for now.

alcohol

song of the month

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uhiy6yFzIbw


I'll have to say it was of the nicer songs to come out in sometime. Josh Ritter is a hugely underated musician. Here's another gem:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kqLssKusGzM

Such nice songs.

Poker is going well. Your amazing duval76 has turned $2 into $5300.
One of the things that I pride myself on is never going on tilt. This is a crucial ingrediant to becoming a successful poker player. However, I am prone to mini-tilt. I had the worst nigh last night playing. I was being sucked out on (esoecially on the bubble or 5-handed) over and over. I think 4 times i got sucked out with a two-outer on or near the bubble. This led to a mini-tilt which cost me one sng. At least I recognized my tilitedness and quicly close the mother fuckin goddammed pokerstars client.

I really don't seem to enjoy poker, but again, I hope to make my living doing this in the future. It sure as helll is better than working in an office. However, working outside on a farm was the best job I ever had. It didn't pay all that well, but I enjoyed it relativly speaking.

My job was basically feeding and cleaning out the pens of chickens. pigs, cows, and goats. Easily the best job I ever had. But duval76, did it beat working at a soap factory? Yes, lo it did. The soap factory job consisted of astnading in onbe place for EIGHT hours and picking up soap bars and putting them in a packaging box. OVer anfd Over I have had some horrid jobs and so being an sng grinder is bearable to me.

In other news, I have been drinking too much. I play poker drunk all the time. It helps me put in the hours. Some people say to never to play drunk, I don't think it matter I play the same either way.



duval76

i've got 240 channels of shit on the tv to choose from

song of the month

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TIEma4NAc9w

so i have been putting i n the hours lat week and my poker blance is up to $4300. I'm about 100 vpps to get the $285 bonus. I shot up to $4800 then went back down to $4100 then went up to $4600 then hit a downswing and dropped to $3800. Fought my emotions and continued to play to get back up to $4300. Saturday I played drunk and don't hardly remeber playing which was my latest session. I started drinking vodka around 10 in the morning and had consumed about half a handle until that night.

Been fighting depression all week. I am just happy I have held on to my job though. No matter how demeaning it is and insignifacnt I have kept this job for half a year and only missed one week which was b/c of my shingles. Havent missed a day otherwise. You see in the past when I got depressed I would just qit work and nurse my wonds in bed, but I have gotten better at handling the depression and I fight through it and fullfill all my obligations regardless.

With my job and the poker I'm taking in about 3k a month which isn't bad. I can live off of it. I really havent been playing online poker for very long, but it looks like I can take in 3k a month whikle only having to work a real job 10 hours a week.

might be able to make more when i move up to the 50's or could even m,ake more at the 30's, thats a conservative guesstamite.

RWM's thoughts

since it's july 4th or thereabouts, I figured I would let my cat Runs With Mice write a brief statement. Ever since I told her I had a blog she has been bugging me to write an entry. First off of course this is HER song of the month. I decided to let her pick the song of the month, this entry is kind of her thing. Here is Runs With Mice's song of the month.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZZivl5iKCo

here is Runs With Mice:

Hello I'm Run Wit Mouse, duval76' ams kitty ma cat! It's been six months now that I have living been , ben.. benn living been duavl76. Most of the days is what I do I just lay on the armchair and i tell you wat tend to sleep all days until four. Duval76 like to watch the TV and I keeps a tellin go t gos for the poker, but he just keeps watchin. My favorit TV shows he watches are cheers and queer eye for the straight guy.

Duval76 he works for two of the hours and all he does is mop the floor! But I get nervous when he left cuz I dont like him gone. Howm I surposed to eat i cant go out site and eat a mousey. So i greet duval76 when he comes back from mopping the floor like I was a doggy and I is very happy to sees him back cuz is the when he come back sometime to fill my water. And every week the check comes from the governament.
-runs with mouse

_end transmission_

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK.
So that's my cat Runs With Mice. I do watch queer eye for the straight guy every now and then. Kind of embarrasing, but that show just kind of draws me in and I have to watch it. I haven't played poker in three weeks. Was actually very sick for a week with an unexpected ailment-shingles. Shingles is much more common in those who are 60 or over or whose immune system is compromised. But I got it anyway. A week before having shingles I had the flu so my defenses were down. I had the shingles on my lower back and couldn't walk or stand up for three days, it was brutal.

Im at $3100 in my poker account. Trying to save up money to get the fuck out of dodge. To re-invent myself elsewhere and be financially independent. Reading a great book right now called "galilee" by clive barker. Clive barker is kind of a poor man's Stephen King. Last I read of Barker was "the damnation game" which was also engrossing. I'm sure all of my readers have now finished "confederacy of dunces" which I mentioned a couple of months ago. "Galilee" is 600 pages so I will give you some time, but get reading.

pace, duval76

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Hello dear readers!

song of the month
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WULkRzu7_SE

crunk ain't dead.

I've had a wonderful couple weeks at the tables. I made about 1k in my last 26 hours of playing which constituted 2 weeks. What I want to do is put in 20 hours per week. I actually bought a stop watch to make sure I put in the necessary hours.
My bankroll is at $3200. At 5k i will move up to the 50's and playing 8 tables at once I shoul make some decent money. And maybe I will move to Oklahoma City or Atlanta and pay all my expenses through poker. Rent is real cheap in those cities. I'm paying $1200 for a 1 bedrrom (well my dad is paying half, which I hate) in Mass. My goal is to be financially independent, I'm 30 years old for christ sake. So maybe I'll just move to a place where the cost of living is lower to reach that goal. I'm hesistent though with making a living playing online poker because I don't know if I will even be able to play in the future. I just will they will legalize and regulate or stop trying to ban it at least so that it will remain how it is now.
I don't want to work for some cracker who tretas me like shit cuz he's on a power trip.
want be own boss.

next time,
-duval76

Stagnation..

Stagnation without relaxation. That's how my game is going. I'm down 5 buy ins (pretty much even) for 2 weeks or so. Lot of stress involved as well. I play an sng style that is aggressive and prone to swings. When I stay even I get restless and tend to make plays 4 handed or five handed. My bluffs have panned out and I feel I have almost willed myself to break even considering how the cards have fallen lately. So I am actually happy with my play to have only been down 5 buy ins with my bad luck. My nerves get somewhat worn though. I work part-time at a job I hate, and I play poker part-time to supplement my income. The poker is mentally draining and not too enjoybale anymore, but I make more money playing poker than at my dead end job that I hate. The two work togehter to make a modest, at best, income. I decided a part time job would be a good idea as safety net- the guarnateed income. As I move up in stakes I will make more playing poker, provided I can beat those stakes, and make a decent income. That's what I'm aiming for and have been aiming for since I started with $2. What a fuckin grind though.

here's the song of the month btw.\

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5uBEG_LArTQ

This is a great group- tatu.
Have always been a huge fan and the builup for this song is greta.
The lyrics are gold as well.

I strongly suggest you copy and paste the link. I don't do a standard link cuz I don't wnat my blog to be linked up to youtube. Between you and me I would actually not like a huge following for my blog or to be too visible. I move in the shadows, quiet as a flame.

Not doing great, I am experiencing depression but it is not depbilitating. sometimes I really have to push myself to get through the day. If I give in to the depression that will mean I simply go to sleep and miss work and not play poker and miss any other obligations I have for the day. I have not done this and I have grinded my way through another week. I have gotten to the point where I can manage my depression and not let it disrupt my life, as it did before, because I have grown more accustomed to the feeling and have been able to cope with it better with time.

when I was younger the depression would scare me. I would worry the depression would never go away and the feeling would be new to me. It would be shocking, horrible, and deflating. A sense of panic would rise in me and I would ask myself 'will this ever go away'? So with experience I know that it does go away, and the only way to beat depression is to fight it. There is however a great sense of failure when I look at my life. But I have to remember, as my therapist told me, I was dealt a bad hand with my schizoaffective disorder, and have actually done better than most with my diagnosis and have handled it very well.

There are times i take pleasure in my own psychic pain. It sounds strange, but soetimes I am glad my life is not a walk in the park. Akmost as if my feelings of despair and hopelessness are only natural repsonses to life. There are times when I almost take on my misery and challenge myself. Can I do this or do that when I feel like this. Trudging through life and doing everything that is expected of me even when I feel horrible, it has become somewhat of a challenge. A challenge I have come to enjoy. Sounds a little starnge, maybe doesn't make much sense, but that's where I am right now.

bangin'

that's what this song is bangin'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rTufRpbdZg

so if your looking for a song that ain't bangin and that sucks, don't copy and paste this link, cuz you will be dissapointed.

The last sunday before I played in the battle of planets triplke shootout. Shootout tourny's you have to win your table and then you move on and play other people who won their tables. So there is no continous rotation. It is a multi-table tourny, but new players are not added onto the tables to replace someone who bust out. Instead, the table is played out until there is one winner.

Well, I won my first table. For this I recieved about $200. The next tabkle (which is all players who won their previous tables) i got heads up, but ended up coming second . :(

I had a three to one chip lead, but blew it on a bluff and then a slow play on my part with KK. The first hand that did me in, (he showed his cards so I can be sure of what happened) He raised in the SB with 62 offsuit. I called with Q9 offsuit. Flop came Kd, 2s, Ac. I bet out the pot and he re-raised me all in. It was a good play, but I was suprised that he didn't fold. So then I busted by completing the SB with KK. That means I just called and slowplayed the KK. He bet out and I pusdhed pre flop. He called and hit a straight on the river and bam it was over. If I had beat this guy the least I could have won was $900 and first place was $12,000. Oh well. I'm still grinding the $20 sngs and am at $2500 as of this blog entry.



-duval76

the old lady

In regards to the sleep paralysis I never really researched it until it happened six months ago and I only read up on it on wikipedia since it happens so rarely. So I decided to youtube it and it's a little weird other people mention the old lady as well in a ghostly vision. So here is the link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPMUz8RAjks&feature=related

I suggest if anyone has this experience with the old maid - don't look at her. Just close your eyes and she will go away. On saturday I saw the flower apron,very old and torn and I did not care to look up at the face. Just closed my eyes.

weird, it didn't scare me, just got the sense of a very negative energy and a malicious presence.
If I saw a face or she rushed at me I might have been a little freaked out. But luckily I wasn't fully aware.

I'm gonna have to watch all 5 parts now.

a bamboo horizon

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eGPPDV8wBOQ

Why have I decided to Isolate from the world? I have chosen to live a lonely life. Really, i am a

loser by choice. For a while now I have made excuses to not hang out with people when they

have asked if i want to go here or there. You know, people who I have been in contact with

recently I have been pleasant and amiable with them, but kep them at arm's length. Just the

other day i was at my group (this is a dual diagnosis group I go to) and a good looking woman asked if i would like to go for coffee. I said i was a little to busy of late. I laughed a little to myself after that one. And a couple people from work asked if I would like to go out for drinks,
i declined and mumbled something about my mother I think.

But yeah, it seems like wherever I go and the new people I meet, they seem to like me, after all I am an amiable fellow and treat people with respect, but I just prefer to spen my down time alone.There are of course many people I hold in contempt. Those who do not understand sarcasm or if I am putting on a persona (this happens often if I choose to participate in online forum, but even in real life. See the persona I put on is actually me mocking the uglier
side, the underbelly of the human spectrum. I don't know how people go through life without a sense of humor. And if you can't wrap your mind around a multi-layered critique of humanity then I shall avoid you like the plague. So except for the snus forum (i have
been off cigarettes for about 4 or 5 months.

Still snusing. I post on the snus forum where I am well liked every now and then, but havegiven up posting on other internet forums. There really is a whole lot of negative enrgy and cynism when people get on their computers.Got a week ahead of me and I must put in more hours playing poker. This is the thing that may keep me from ever going pro, putting in the hours. Having the discipline to put in the hours. And poker is hard work. I have given the impression through my entries that this is easy money. From $2 to $50 to $500 and now over $2000. During this process I had a 40 buyin downswing and a month long break even strecth that began to eat away at my soul. I was able to recover though as I knew I would. I do not get emotionally involved in the game. I really don't to high when I lose or to down when I win. OOps, vice versa .. I have
learned the art of detaching. While a losing streak or break even stretch may leave me somewhat frustrated it is nothing really. yo mam...

But yeah, i gotta play more.This weekend I just watched some of the ncaa tournament games, slept, and drank. Pretty boring life actually that's why this blog might not work out. Hope everyone had a nice weekend. I could have gone to dinner with my brother who I rarely see on saturday night, but I declined of course.

Sometimes I get sleep paralysis. THis happens once or month or so and it happened to me after a nap on saturday. I am always in a half-awake state and rarely I will see things. This is not a psychiatric problem, but some people do hallucinate during sleep paralysis and this time I saw this old woman in a flower apron by the bed. Just got this decaying kind of negative feeling from her. this will happen twice or so a year. This presence and visual hallucination. It's always a sapping experience and the last time it was six months ago. Again after a nap in a half awake state I fell asleep on the couch and awoke to a women in the kitchen in a very tattered , threadbare dress that seemed was buried in the earth for 200 years. I always see kind of a faint image, and feel it would become clearer if I don't close my eyes tight as the image materializes. Kind of weird, but it is no episode or anything, just a byproduct of sleep paralysis. Some people in different cultures believe this a visit from an evil spirit draining my energy. Who knows maybe it is. I don't really care all that much either way as long as they don't do it too often.

Whatchya gone and do?

that's about all for now.
I hope you enjoyed chopin! (the link above)

the beehive

Here's the song of the month

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-ITv4OBV9c

book of the month I'll start doing too.
confederacy of dunces-john kennedy toole (funniest book I have ever read)

I wrote up a long entry but it didn't make any sense so I deleted it. I was having a bad day and it was really depressing too. I have recently turned 30 and that was getting me down. I have moved up to the $20 sngs as my bankroll has passed $2000. I always wait for 100 buy ins. Had a really good few weeks at the tables and got $150 for finishing 5th in the weekly sng leaderboard and also b/c of that got an entry into a monthly shootout.

I said in an earlier entry i would give poker advice and here is some non-specific advice. Play friday and saturday nights if you have nothing else going on.. If you play between 10pm-2am est. time you will find a lot of drunk recreational players spewing chips. I also said I hadn't noticed a dip in my ROI 8-tabling, but that was a stupid thing to say as I for funhad a smaple size of like 50 games. It takes 500 or so games to get a true ROI. Most knowledgable sng players say it takes more than that, but 500 is enough imo. Also, please don't play drunk yourself. 2 or 3 drinks is fine, in fact tight players may notice some improvement in their game after a couple drinks, but don't play drunk. I have been guilty of this and have on more than one occasion puked while playing which is no fun at all. Passed out a few times too and awoke in my chair with the site still on and forfettied money.

Trying to figure what exactly I am going to do with this blog. I might sports bets picks. I do pretty well betting on sports and I figure it would be a nice thing to do for my readers- as a reward for reading my blog. Now, I only bet for fun, just play money because betting on sports online is illegal. I certainly don't encourage you to bet real money.

While we are on sports, my basketball team, the Boston Celtics are the best team in the NBA. They have taken a small dip in the overall standings and have the third best record in the NBA, but they are the best team. They took this dive b/c they haven't had Garnett and their point guard Rondo. Rondo is a hugely underated player imo. He has such court awareness and quick hands. He is the best point guard in the NBA. He can rebound too. So i am not worried about the celtics.

Still working at my unglamorous job mopping floors and such and actually don't feel so bad about it with the economy and all. They interviewed 5 people for the job and picked me so that's a confidence booster. Who knows how many resumes they got. My worst job was as i sadi picking trash. To be more specific this was a recycling facility up in Vermont. All the recyclbels picked up by thge trucks got dumped here. The glass went in one area, but everything else had to be manually sorted and thrown into their appropraite places. It was all just dumped on conveyor belts and I and other people frantically picked and sorted in a line. Wow did that job suck and I was only paid $7.25/hour. So this new job I have is a step up from that I guess.

My cat runs with mice is doing great. I think she's happy to be here and not in the streets or in a cage. For a society to function properly we need it just. That's what I was getting at in my previous post. Unless some kid in the inner city is really book smart and scores well on sAT and super motivated they have no chance in a shitty school. There are plenty of kids who are not as bright going to better colleges, b/c as I said a C is like an A at a good high school. That's how colleges look at it. So when you pay your taxes and or complain about "free handouts" keep that in mind. Then of course there is the cost of college which is another unjust thing. See I realize this b/c I don't have a college degree. A college degree gets your foot in the door for high paying jobs for the most part. So then they are criticed and unfairly prosecuted for selling some pot to make ends meat. No wonder there is so much anger in some of these kids. They are living in one of the wealthiest countries in human history, but they are left out and shat upon.

This isn't just a white black things it's a rich poor thing. Basically, we need to give equal oppurtunity, but there is no easy way to fix this. The wealthy paying more of a percentage in taxes is one way and you shouldn't bitch about it. I remember when Obama was running in the general election and I heard these republican talking heads ranting about Obama that liberal wants to raise taxes on your hard earned money! Well, that's n ot true. It was only for people making over 200grand or something. There are some real shameless people out there and they tend to appear on TV a lot and are attracted to politics. Then these same people want to tell my I can't play online poker. When it is a signifacnt portion of my income? But you can bet on lotteries on line. And the ponies (a rich mans gambling habits). Gfet the fuck out of here.

I just want to thank everyone for reading my blog. Feel free to comment. I had a bad week last week and depression was creeping in. Here's one thing I do when I'm feeling depressed. I put on Chopin (a piano composer) or some other elaborate form of music and I dim the lights and lay in bed. The peaks and flow of the music are like life. The good times and the bad. For people with menatl illness these are magnified. And I just lsiten to the msuic and when the tempo slows and the notes are lower i say OK, that is where I am right now. And then I say it will pass and the msuci will become faster with higher tones, and there will be happier days. The msuic is calming and too and it is intricate and complex like life. Thats one thing that helps me.

That magnification of feelings thats the thing I've noticed with many people with mental illness. When people talk about the dulling effect of some psych meds and how that is a downside. Well, some people need this. The alternative is owrse. Basically, what I'm saying is if you haven't suffered from a mental illness or educated in the matter, don't be so quick to judge. Walk a mile in someon's shoes. It's an old idiom, but as all old idiom's it needs to be pounded into people's heads. Timeless wisdom.

until next time this is duval76
over and out.

halfagoodday

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LoNXsne8exg

gotta love T-squared...

So I ended up getting a cat. I was planning on getting two cats, but decided on just one. She is a 1 year old stray with a lot of energy and good looks. Unfortunately she took a liking to my goldfish Jesta as I was worreied about. Jesta was on top of a bookcase in my bedroom and what do you know my new cat had jumped up and stuck her paw and face in the bowl.. I really hap only one option after this but to put the fish on top of the refigerator and on top of a bunch of books. So now my goldfish is near the ceiling in my kitchen.

I named my cat "runs with mice" it is a native american name and it fit perfectly since she was a stray cat and living by her own devices, the native way. She was very skinny when I got her and apparently was not a very good hunter. She has a ton of energy and tends to expend the excess energy at night. She basically just sprints around the apartment at night and knocks shit over and pounces on her jingly toys. She was waking me up at like 3 or 5 in then morning with her toys so I have decided to hide them at night and I am trying to keep her up during the day so that she is no longer nocturanal/


runs with mice is a great cat though and she is the best.

Lets see what else..
I have been working 10 hours per week just cleaning shit up. I have worked many a job and most have been menial labor intensive stuff. I had two what some people may call real jobs. These were years ago. These jobs were in the coperate sector, but I could not stand them! I absolutly hated working in an office and have been much happier in more hands on work. i have been an assistand property manger, new accounts clerk at a brokerage, garbage picker, construction laborer, I worked at a soap factory that made soap for prsions... I have done all sorts of shit. I don't have a bachelors degree and so my choices are limited. But I am happy with what I am doing right now.

The poker has been going very well. I am now up to $1500. Remember that I started with $2. I think that it is within the realm of possibilities that I could make a living playing online poker, but as I have sadi before this is an at best shaky proposition and would much rather have this as second income. And with the kind of low-paying, menial work I do this is very much needed. I have started 8-tabling the sngs and think I can make about $4/per table playing the $50 sngs. I was at this level before and it was after a heater. I became very high on myself and started playing every hand and bluffing and making very margianl calls. This is a strategy that is doomed to fail while playing sngs. And I dropped right on down to the $30's fairly quickly. So next time I take the shot at the $50's I will not play with a 'donk High"

I've been going to a gym for a few months now and play in weekly 3 on 3 half court game. When we shot for teams and possesion it was clear that I was the most talented player on the court. We have stuck with the original teams as it is usually a good matchup and the score is close. There is a 350 pound black guy on my team who I was a little worried about originally. I do not mean to sound racist, but african-americans have a higher risk of carivascular disease than the mean population. So it was for this reason that after the teams were chosen and before the first game started I asked if anyone knew CPR.

Unfortunatly the guy took offense and an argument took place. He was righ up in my face saying dont you disrespect me goldy-locks and so on. I have longish hair and it falls down a little) But we have a cemented our diffrences and we are now a friends and teammates. It's funny cuz at first I thought with me being the best palyer why don't he jsut set screens for me, but he is also a very good outside shooter and we are quite the team.

I have some good ideas for my next blog entry- about an injustice system we have. I mean it's like luck of the gene pool if you think about it. What school you go to and such. The inner city has the worst schools and colleges take note of thgis. So no matter how smart you are as a young kid you are not given the consideration of top colleges. The schools in the inner city are shabby and disorganized. I went to a a public high school where a D was equivalent to an A from an inner city school.. This really is how it works. And we wonder why some of these kids trun to selling drugs. Well they got shafted from the get go is why. The suburban wealthy kids make money in a legal way, b/c they are given that oppurtunity. The kid who was raised in the inner city is given no such option. It really isn't fair at all if you think about it. Cuz the rich kids they would do the same thing. If you don't give e veryone an equal oppurtunity than stay the fuk out of their business and how they decide to make teir money is what I say.,

Anyway im up to $1500 on poker and jsut started 8 tabling. I have not noticed any dip in my roi.

Ziz potta BOOM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mkoQuWnJh64

X-mass came and passed.

Highlight of the holiday was playing guitar hero. Never played it before.

My cousin and brother were on the guitars and I decided I would sing.

We settled on Eye of the tiger. The first two times I couldn't keep up with the lyrics,
but the third time I banged out real good. Maybe I'll start a band, be a rockstar, my
mom said I sounded good after the song.

Up to $1,050 at poker. Will start working next week at a part-time job I landed.