le moon

back to the 80's

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n7CuJ8cR9sg

OK, so I didn't get fired for being drunk at work last week, thank the good Lord in Heaven. I'm surprised no one noticed I was drunk cuz, as I said, I only remember bits and pieces of working that night.

My last post I leaned too far into self-pity and fell into it. Sorry for that.

Haven't played any poker in two 1/2 weeks now(hate poker but respect the game and its pros). been reading and even writing a little which I have not done in years(writing that is). I don't have the money to buy any new books so I have been re-reading books I read a few years ago. Philip K Dick's flow my tears, a biography on Thomas Jefferson, and Jack Kerouac's Dharma bums. Just been reading all day and night. The only TV I watch now is sports (there really is nothing else worht watching cept for Cheers). Looking forward to the Celtics season which starts on Tuesday. Unfortunately I work at night from 8:30 to 10:30 and I miss all the Celtics and Red Sox games during the week. So the weekends are for watching sports and nothing else.

It's fun though re-discovering Kerouac and Philip K dick, wish I had some money to buy new books though from different authors cuz I have read all of Dick and Kerouac including biographies (ebooks of the former). And by God please read two different biographers of a famus figure. You always have to read biographies by two different biographers to balance bias and discrepancy.

Sometimes I worry my cat has gotten sick of me.

I'll use the dark shadow

this must be the song you hear when you float off to heaven:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EyI4p0yjDQ


HAven't been playing all too much, but I was at $5400 and am now at $4600. Forty buy-in downswing. That's about as bad as it has ever gotten for me, but still it hasn't really bothered me or effected my game. I'm still able to withdraw $500 a month with bonuses and not have it effect my roll.

Still, I am basically living on very little, essentially in poverty. Luckily I have a wealthy dad to fall back on if shit hits the fan. I try to pay my own way though- not having much money to live gets to me thoiugh. I live on those 60cent tino burritos and brocolli crowns. I have food stamps but they go quick. kind of pathetic how my life has turned out. Given every opputrunity, from a wealthy famil and qt 30 I end up essentially living in poverty. lol

I think once I have the roll to multi table the 50's (assuming I can beat that level) and find the work ethic to put in at least 30 hours a week, I will have much more money coming in and live mroe comfotable. My therapist keeps telling me my metnal illness(schizoaffective) is the reason why my life is a monumental failure, but I cant blame everything on that.

I am a little worried I may get fired from my job for showing up drunk Friday. I hope my boss didn't notice, but I hardly remeber working. If you are new to my blog, I have a partime- job claeaning at night. I hardly have much contact with my boss so maybe she didn't notice I was drunk. Really have to stay off the vodka b4 work. Thats all drink now. Cheap vodka. But I live off this money and the poker money so im very nervous about getting fired. I'll find out tonight if anyone noticed and keep you updated.

all for now.